Falling Apart to Fall Together

Have you ever been at that point where you wake up one day and you just realize that something's finally happening? It's been one of those days for me.

It's like that saying goes... "Sometimes things just have to fall apart so that they can fall together." Over the past year, I've had a serious relationship crumble around me, I kicked a habit, been through the motions of unemployment, and been out on my butt a handful of times. I think it's safe to say that I know what hitting rock bottom is.

With going through all these things that are happening in my life, I have found strength and love in faith and family. I know what it's like to attempt to go at it alone because of pride... I also know that it's a lonely road to do so. So I gave in when my family surrounded me and I know that my faith is not a crutch, but rather a means to keep sanity and to... keep going through it all.

I've gone from a silly girl that does nothing for herself, but hurt herself, to a girl who has grown to know herself better just by tripping and stumbling. I'm not a perfect person and I don't ever want to be. The thing that makes me me are my flaws and my ability and strength to accept them. I hope to only become stronger and smarter as my journey goes on.

Beginnings, Ends, and All In-between

Sometimes when you're little, you come up with all these crazy things that you wanna be when you grow up. Sometimes these dreams come true; others don't. Yet sometimes the ones that don't, they never stop. Those ones end up with new dreams and those ones can come true. The entire point of this is life doesn't always turn out the way we wanted it. No matter what though, it's always worth the ride.

I wanted to be a vet. And then a doctor. Then a nurse. At one point I even had myself convinced I might become a princess. No matter what I wanted to do, Mom and Dad pretty much always said I could do it.

Now I've grown and, even though I know MOST of these dreams were attainable, they were fads; the passion wasn't there for me. Over the past year, I gone through some dramatic changes, had my entire world shaken and turned, and found my outlet... And my passion. I've come back to writing and I dabble in most any art. That's where my heart is.

This blog will just take you through the journey as I find a way to give my passion to the world... And maybe someday, somewhere, somebody will know my name just for that.

Just remember this everybody, don't give up on dreams; just change them and put your mind, body, and soul in it.